Still loving you

haha how funny when i read my last post, writing about the guitar guy. he is just my distraction.
i needed distraction and more distractions. This means by meeting up new ehem guys.
Tapi, datanglah sebanyak mana distractions, guys, everything still reminds me of him.
I never loved someone as much as this after Fik, my last bestfriend. When the unexpected friend came into my life. I have started loving him lovingly, so deeply until it hurts me when I know I have lost him to someone else or to life of his.

Last saturday, without planning, my friends and I went to TC. Good heavens, I miss TC! TC is my second home. I used to hate Kuantan but not until I found my peace of mind there, now, TC is the place I go to escape.

And... so long I haven't cried since the day I knew I have lost him. I shed my tears for all the good bad days I had there including the days I spent with him. I miss him..... I miss talking and arguing with him... I thought I could stand strong without him... but I will try to stand alone without him.

p.s. I miss hearing my phone rings at 4am and it's you who's calling me.